Have you ever...

Have you ever want to tell someone something but have been to afraid to?
But every time you work up the nerve you find a reason not to?
And the problem is that its a good reason...
But the the reasons to do it are just as good...
And in my case that little pessimistic devil all ways wins the stalemate...

Have you ever wanted to just go and be a new person?
To disappear and begin anew, to be some one different than you are?
To be the person you always wanted to be because you've made too many mistakes to be that person in this life...
To being born in another city, state, country...
Doing things differently but the same...

Have you ever just wanted to start from the beginning?
To redo everything, to make everything perfect...
To make sure you studied hard, to have actually done your homework, acing all your tests.
To have said something to that person you had a crush on in the 4th grade...
To have another chance with the girl you thought you would marry...
To have have not said that lie...
Not getting into that fight...

Have you been so polarized with someone or something that your apathetic...
One moment your infatuated and the next your repulsed...
And you can't decide which should be the right one?
So you don't and you try not to care but that doesn't work...
In the end you just waste time and make things worse..

Have you ever wanted to snap?
To explode and go off like a bomb?
To tear down the next idiot who does something stupid?
To unleash that little devil we keep locked up?
To be ruthless and just say the ugliest thing that comes to mind?
To tear the room your in apart till it looks like trailer park after a tornado?

Have you ever wanted to take the mask off?
To say what you really mean?
To do what you really want to?
To shove that stupid thing called a conscience in a box and throw it out the window?But if we did that we would all turn into Ted Bundy...
He's not a very good role model from what I gather...

Have you ever wanted not to be so lazy?
To not be such a procrastinator...
To not leave things to the last second?
To be smart and do everything ahead?
To not be apathetic...
But in the end who cares as long as it gets done...right?

Have you ever wanted to dance 'n sing the rain?
Have you ever wanted to climb a tree to the top and jump off?
Have you ever wanted to add lighter fluid, gasoline, and silly putty together in a jar and light it?
Have you ever wanted to just take a walk and smell the roses?
Have you ever wanted to learn to play the guitar?

Then what are you waiting for? Go and do it, because you only have one life to live...Don't waste it.